|Posted by Cat on September 28, 2012 at 4:50 AM|
I'm hopin' that Inviz doesn't mind me speakin' out on this matter. Since she asked me to be a mod, guess this would be a good place to break out the blog post.
“I read the news today, oh boy. About a lucky man who made the grade. . .” Sostarts the Beatles song, ‘A Day in the Life’. That thought flew through my mind when I logged onto the computer at work and saw the headline about the young actor Johnny K Lewis – who portrayed Kip ‘Half Sack’ Epps during the first two seasons of Sons of Anarchy’ – had died.
Except Mr. Lewis hadn’t quite ‘made the grade’ in Hollyweird parlance. Indeed, the write up from all the news sources mention his decade long career, with minor roles in one of those ‘Alien VS Predator’ movies and in another television show before ‘SOA’. None of the write ups mentioned his work in ‘The Runaways’ nor last year’s guest starring role in one of the CBS crime shows.
I never had the opportunity to meet Mr. Lewis, but while he was on Twitter, did tweet to him on occasion and got a response back. I don’t carry any grandiose ideas that we were best buds because of that. He probably didn’t know me from Adam, except as a ‘SOA’ fan who tried to be polite and supportive. Even so, it hurt my heart to find out that someone so young had gone in such a horrible way.
What hurt even more were some of the more negative things posted about him on Twitter when the initial news came out. We don’t know all the facts, and may never know them. Is it awful that he is suspected of beating his elderly landlady to death? Yes, it is. And my heart also hurts for her friends and family. But – and this is a big but that I’m throwin’ out here – SUSPECTED doesn’t mean he did it.
The latest reports indicate that police suspect that he did so during some kind of episode and aren't really, according to those same reports, persuing any further investigation. Circumstancially, he lived at the house, people reported hearing screams and the sounds of fighting, Mr. Lewis was reported having an altercation with the neighbors and a painter at the neighbor’s home. Right now, the chances are that he did do this awful thing, and that makes me mad. It just seems to me that even if there's only a one percent chance that he's innocent of the beating death, no stone should remain unturned to find the truth.
But truth is often hard to come by when things look to be true. Why should the police waste time and money seeking further information when all the pieces of the puzzle fit so well together? Hell, even the press is speculating that Mr. Lewis' irractic behavior and recent 'string' (three known incidents makes a string now!) of anti - social behavior was caused by drugs!
The reason it makes me mad is that his life has been wasted, and from what Mr. Sutter reported earlier today, apparently Mr. Lewis’ was on a downslide for some time. For all I know people might be askin' him why he didn't do somethin' if he could see it comin'. I've not been on the interwebs much today.
Havin’ seen up close the way addicted persons are, they can’t be stopped unless they WANT to stop. Mr. Sutter knows this, I know this, and many who’ve been unfortunate enough to experience it know this. Oh, you can force a person into interventions and rehab, but if their head isn’t in the right place to accept it, it’s like a plug in a dyke. Pull the plug and you’ve got a flood on your hands.
Some people have posted very nasty things about Mr. Lewis, that he deserved to die for beating the old lady. Even if you put alledgedly in front of your rant, it’s still a nasty thing to say! It’s easy for us to hiss and boo when someone who is supposed to entertain us falls off the pedestal we’ve placed them upon.
And let’s face it, we do put them on a pedestal. We watch their shows, we interact with them on social networks, we yell and scream for their attentionwhenever they’re out in public. They have basically no personal/private life and are told ‘What are you complainin’ about? We MADE you! You OWE us your life’s blood!’
It’s that being in the public eye at all times, and having hundreds of thousands of people comment on your every word, every move, every action – positively or negatively – that wears on even the strongest person. Magazines and so –called‘entertainment information’ programs report on every belch, every fart, every blemish, and every mistake the celebrity makes. Cameras are pointed in their faces and blind them; obsessed fans stalk them; their lives change because they’re recognized.
It’s obvious from the reports of recent arrests that Mr. Lewis was in a tailspin this year. And if he was supposed to be serving a 306 day sentence THIS YEAR, WTF was he doin’ out and about? Somebody messed up big time there. If he was supposed to be in rehab as opposed to jail, how in the Hell did he get away from it?
Being in jail, however, would not have cured him of whatever bothered him. If he was addicted to something that made him act out the way he did, the jail time would’ve only delayed it a few weeks/months. Unless at some time during the incarceration, he would’ve been able to get his head/mind/spirit in a place that would allow him to seek the help he needed, and therefore prevent this awful event from occurring.
The might have been is what makes me angry. The waste of two lives makes me angry. And the uncaring, unkind behavior of a relative few makes me angry. Mr. Lewis had friends, and so did his landlady. He had a family. So did his landlady. Those people are going through the most incredible pain a person can possibly go through.
Fortunately, there are a great number of people who have posted kind and caring things, despite the horror of the situation. The actors, actresses, and crew that worked so closely with him on ‘Sons of Anarchy’ can’t help but feel affected by this. Some have shared their pain with us on the social networks. Some have kept their thoughts private, and that’s their right to do so. To those who I had the chance to meet and really get to know last November, especially those I’m honored to be able to refer to as ‘my friend’, please know that my thoughts and prayers are with you for the loss, and with Mr. Lewis’ friends and family and the landlady’s friends and family. I know the pain, have felt it very intimately these last few months.
May both the victims rest in peace and find that their God truly has them in his hands and has brought them Home at last.
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